Pre-Wellness State

It's so strange. I feel like my body isn't mine anymore and now I'm living every day in hopes that I'll maintain. I'm leading out this body that seems to have failed.

I have diabetes.
I feel like I should have known all these years that I have been diabetic. But I cannot reverse the hands of time. I must pull myself together and keep going.

It's cyber Monday and I'm not looking forward to being at work if I'm feeling horrible.

I have so many more questions.
Can I get pregnant?
Do I have PCOS?
Why am I having so many side effects?
Can I take a short leave of absence from work to adjust to everything?
Can I apply for fmla?
Am I ever going to feel normal?
Can you give me medication for treating this depression?
My hormone levels are completely off, is there another test for that?

In one whole day I go from upset, to happy, to sad. The frustration builds every day.
Thank goodness there's support from the people who really love me and care about me.